So, a stomach bug later, some half finished plumbing later and a sense that I 'could do better'.. I have enjoyed my time over the past couple of weeks, started a bunch of stuff, enjoyed time at home with my family, but as it goes I'm acting a little like I've won the lottery at the moment.
So this is the point of this blog, as reality properly dawns in this post UWL, post mainstream Photo Art world that I'm in, what are the fundamentals that I need and what am I looking for?
Firstly, my family and responsibilities here in my home, to try to bring up Oscar right and to be a good husband for Martine. Secondly, try to engage, immerse in the natural world I love. This is freedom, for me, standing on the edge of a wood, at the top of a hill, no one around - I could go on about it, what it means, how it feels, but I guess that's where the art bit comes in.
I've always tried to bottle the sense of fundamental and natural freedom that comes when you are immersed in nature. For me my photography and artwork is like archaeology, trying to pick apart, to discover and to highlight various visual stimuli that speaks of possibility. Its a kind of sublime I guess, the longing for what is over there, its a kind of ultimate 'the grass is always greener on the other side' thing, but its so much more than that, I would go as far to say that its my religion (but please notice the small 'r').
So who cares if I don't need more than that? I have you (you lovely internet based anonymous human interaction you) to share all this nonsense with. Oh yeah, money, I need that stuff.. But then isn't that the reality of human existence? The Monday morning get up and struggle to work? If you get the chance to enjoy the good stuff then a bit of Monday morning kind of works, right? Also, for completely opposite reasons and for a completely different sublime (go see Andreas Gursky's work if you need a visual with this), I kind of get a kick out of you humans and enjoy getting involved in their wacky schemes.
Its all about balance then - work to live, not, live to work. Don't get sucked in to other's longings too much, but then don't forget to be a part of the human world either.