I am making a new life plan, a change in the way I approach my career. For a dyslexic bloke I have done well in academia, holding my own in understanding the lofty heights of the theory and history of photography and come out of it with an MA and a bunch of experience working in Photographic Higher Education.
But, in the end I have decided that teaching and researching is not for me (professionally at least, I may yet win the lottery and take the full 7 years completing a PhD)..
And so I am moving on.. And with it I really hope the desire to try so bloody hard to be heard and seen moves on too.. I have been a try-hard, and it was killing me...
What replaces that.. Well, I hope that I can (and I have the blessing and support of my wonderful wife Martine in this) learn just to be, to enjoy being creative, but not let being a creative be that greasy pole. In fact, give up the greasy pole all together and take a bit of a walk around the field that contains the greasy pole..
I will be leaving my full time job at the end of Feb and from there I will take stock for a while (for the people I work with, students and friends, I'm still here if you want any advice or help, just let me know).
I may be snapped up by some upwardly mobile software company, get a Tesla car, earn a packet, go the gym, live off motorway food,, but I will (I WILL!!) remember and make room for happiness, what ever I do..
Incidentally, I do have an idea creatively, if you are interested. This involves working with liquid emulsion, wooden sculptures and multi media photographic prints, digitally created but traditionally printed with a little underpainting (I am building my own darkroom! very exciting).. We'll see how this all comes together, I'll put it all here - you know, just for the shits and giggles…